My Life Is Coming Together

Tonight I fixed my schedule of classes of the fall and as nerdy as it sounds, I'm so excited for school to start. And no, not just for social reasons. Yes, I want to meet new people and have life experiences, but I also want to learn and expand my mind. I've heard good reviews about my professors and I'm looking forward to getting an education for my future.

This past Friday and Saturday was SPOP (Student Parent Orientation Program) and as cheesy as it sounds, it was a life changing experience. I fell in love with the campus all over again and it just reassured me that I'm going to have the time of my life. My hall was filled with outgoing people that made my stay a constant party. We even had cheers and hand signals! The staffers were genuinely nice and willing to answer any of our questions. They organized a series of activities called "spOlympics" where we all broke into teams to win the prize. Turns out we all won 'street cred.' Haha then a good 10 or so of us stayed up ALL NIGHT talking, laughing, and playing games like 'Asa', fishbowl, watermelon, and 10 fingers. Actually, I lost in watermelon so I had to eat breakfast the next day without my hands... haha

On the last day we did deeper activities like cross the line and the touch game, which resulted in a room filled of tears. We all sat in a huge circle facing outwards and closed our eyes. A staffer read statements like "please touch someone who inspires you" or "please touch someone who doesn't know how beautiful they are" as a rotating group of 5 went around and tapped people. It was crazy how we all became so close in the mere 36 hours. I never thought people would feel such positive things about me, and it was crazy how we all impacted each other so greatly. Now we're all facebook friends of course, and I can't wait to see these people again in the fall!

I'm coming away from this experience with a million inside jokes and faith restored in humankind. The atmosphere is just so different down there. Everyone is nice and open to new things. I didn't feel judged once. There are nice people out there, and I can't wait to meet them all.

Thank God

My daily horoscope:

At first, it's harder than usual for you to let go of something that recently occurred. But things will improve, even if it takes a while for you to overcome your negativity. Keep in mind that forcing a positive change of attitude won't work today. Just let the events unfold while knowing that better times are on the way. Believe it or not, the Sun will appear and chase away the dark clouds.

Night Owl

I seriously need more friends that don't sleep like me. Haha I never update this because it takes too long. Twitter is taking over my life. You can follow me at http://twitter.com/queenofjuicy. Anyway, Huey comes back today from New York!! That little bz got to travel across the country as I sat around and daydreamed in summer school. Depressing. Also, Brian, Andrew, Ryan, and I have become gambleholics. I lost $100 today and Ryan almost lost $300! Yikessss. I was angry at myself earlier but now I'm over it. Yeah, that money could've been put towards my iphone or college, but whatever, at least I had fun. I seriously need to refrain from shopping. At least until back to school shopping starts. I'll just spend it on food ... but then again, that can actually be pretty pricy. I want froyo and jamba juice so bad right now. Ahhh.

I will leave you with my new life motto:

Second Saturday

Still don't understand the grand appeal of Second Saturday. I guess it's just another excuse to be drunk and smoke in public. It can be quite entertaining, but then again, I don't like looking around constantly checking that I won't be thrown up on or questioned by the cops.

Bad Eyes

I know all this MacBook time is killing my vision and I'm going to regret it in the future, but whatever I'm living in the moment. Which means I've been trying new things and talking to new people (well trying at least). This past week I won $47 in Blackjack, went to my first 18+ club, and did some art. Now I will resume to listening to my old school rap.

Cash4Gold

Life's been unnecessarily dramatic. Retail therapy seems to help.

Also, I've been reading Diggy's blog and it's pretty, in his words, DOPE!

All Smiles

Doing what makes me happy and enjoying life. Happy 4th of July! Barbeque and festivities tomorrow. Time for good food with good people.

Last night we celebrated Ryan's 18th birthday by going to Jackson Rancheria then hanging out. It was a really fun night, despite Brian's car getting a flat in the middle of a dark, abandoned road. I felt like I was in a horror movie, waiting to be killed. We all laughed about it after though. Long night that turned into morning. I didn't go to bed until 8:30AM. I think that's a record.

Push And Pull

Last night around this same time I had what I called a "life changing revelation." I was suddenly extremely motivated to make changes and prepare myself for my bright future ahead of me. I wanted to have fun and do what I wanted for once. But now, 24 hours later, I find myself deflated and searching for answers once again. I still don't understand how people can have so little regard for others with their actions and words. How can people tell such blatant lies? And better question - why do I always fall for it?