Thank God

My daily horoscope:

At first, it's harder than usual for you to let go of something that recently occurred. But things will improve, even if it takes a while for you to overcome your negativity. Keep in mind that forcing a positive change of attitude won't work today. Just let the events unfold while knowing that better times are on the way. Believe it or not, the Sun will appear and chase away the dark clouds.

Night Owl

I seriously need more friends that don't sleep like me. Haha I never update this because it takes too long. Twitter is taking over my life. You can follow me at http://twitter.com/queenofjuicy. Anyway, Huey comes back today from New York!! That little bz got to travel across the country as I sat around and daydreamed in summer school. Depressing. Also, Brian, Andrew, Ryan, and I have become gambleholics. I lost $100 today and Ryan almost lost $300! Yikessss. I was angry at myself earlier but now I'm over it. Yeah, that money could've been put towards my iphone or college, but whatever, at least I had fun. I seriously need to refrain from shopping. At least until back to school shopping starts. I'll just spend it on food ... but then again, that can actually be pretty pricy. I want froyo and jamba juice so bad right now. Ahhh.

I will leave you with my new life motto:

Second Saturday

Still don't understand the grand appeal of Second Saturday. I guess it's just another excuse to be drunk and smoke in public. It can be quite entertaining, but then again, I don't like looking around constantly checking that I won't be thrown up on or questioned by the cops.

Bad Eyes

I know all this MacBook time is killing my vision and I'm going to regret it in the future, but whatever I'm living in the moment. Which means I've been trying new things and talking to new people (well trying at least). This past week I won $47 in Blackjack, went to my first 18+ club, and did some art. Now I will resume to listening to my old school rap.

Cash4Gold

Life's been unnecessarily dramatic. Retail therapy seems to help.

Also, I've been reading Diggy's blog and it's pretty, in his words, DOPE!

All Smiles

Doing what makes me happy and enjoying life. Happy 4th of July! Barbeque and festivities tomorrow. Time for good food with good people.

Last night we celebrated Ryan's 18th birthday by going to Jackson Rancheria then hanging out. It was a really fun night, despite Brian's car getting a flat in the middle of a dark, abandoned road. I felt like I was in a horror movie, waiting to be killed. We all laughed about it after though. Long night that turned into morning. I didn't go to bed until 8:30AM. I think that's a record.

Push And Pull

Last night around this same time I had what I called a "life changing revelation." I was suddenly extremely motivated to make changes and prepare myself for my bright future ahead of me. I wanted to have fun and do what I wanted for once. But now, 24 hours later, I find myself deflated and searching for answers once again. I still don't understand how people can have so little regard for others with their actions and words. How can people tell such blatant lies? And better question - why do I always fall for it?